Death to a 4 year old

This past year Felix has lost a lot of pets; Camo, Gabby (parakeet), Moon Fish, Chickens (we had to give them away), and recently Goldie (goldfish)...

Explaining death to our 4 year old in the most simplest terms and seeing his eyes fill with tears pulls at the heart strings! We have had to say goodbye to a lot of our family (pets), and for a young child it can be confusing, scary and bring up a lot of questions. 

As a child I was terrified of dying and leaving the people I love and not having my mom. Just this past week Felix has shown all the same fears. He asks repeatedly if "Daddy and Mommy are going to die soon?" I am a firm believer in teaching children the truth, but in words they understand. I explain that Daddy and I have a lot more life to live and that we are healthy and young. And each time, he looks at me with his big brown eyes and cries, "But I am going to miss you". 

Dying is the unknown (with or without religion). No one knows what really happens, and no one can explain it perfectly. All I can do is show my boys unconditional love, comfort and be truthful with them. There are still times when the thought of dying scares me, but now it isn't just about leaving the people I love and my mom. It's about knowing my boys will be alright and that they will look out for each other. 

I love you Felix Rene and Oscar Vincent. Daddy and I will always be a part of you, no matter where we all are! ❤️

Fun Family Weekend

We do holidays big in our family, especially because we have kids to celebrate for. Our house was decorated for Valentine's Day and we had presents throughout the day. I came home to a delicious home cooked meal from Walter, along with an exchange of presents. This year, for some reason, Felix came up with the "Heart Fairy". It was fun to play into his imagination and keep this spirit alive. My mom always made celebrations the most fun and I love passing that onto my kids! Watching Felix light up when the special day arrives is so much fun! 

Saturday, Felix started soccer again. He had more control over the ball. I love watching him gain confidence in the game and pump his fist into the air when he makes a goal! He then glances over to me to make sure I saw and gives me a thumbs up, I of course tear up! That evening we signed him up for Tee Ball! He is a little more hesitant to start a new sport, not knowing any kids. He signed his very first "Code of Conduct", and again, it made me tear up. Walter and I are so excited for this next chapter. Watching baseball was such a major part of my adolescence, and Felix has some of the best people to help him learn the new sport (Uncle Brandon and Uncle Mond)...not to mention when Walter was featured on Wednesdays Child, as a young boy, he was playing baseball with Jeff Gianola!

Finally, Sunday afternoon we were able to celebrate Felix's birthday with family and friends! He had all his special people around to sing him Happy Birthday! Felix chose a Snowbaby theme and I don't think I could have came up with a better party idea then that. He received amazing gifts and had fun running around after his cousins, best friends and playing with Sully! It was a long afternoon, but so worth it! I am glad we were finally able to make it happen and that everyone still came! 

A two week celebration came to an end! I love celebrating my family, I love watching their face light up with joy, I love making someone feel special! We had a great family weekend! 

One last Happy 4th to my sweet baby! I love you FRG, you rock my world! 

Hello 4

3 came and went so quickly! I loved it all! He became much more independent and grew so much; fully potty trained with no pull-ups at night, becoming a big brother, starting school, first soccer class, first train ride. 

He makes me so proud of the person he is becoming. He is compassionate, confident, happy, polite and loving. His love for life brings a smile to everyone around him. He cares deeply about animals, his family and as he would say, "Mother Earth". 

Felix Rene, you are my sunshine! You are my happiness and I couldn't be more in love with you! Thank you for being you and bringing us all such joy! I love every inch of you, including every beautiful chocolate spot! Happy Happy Birthday Groundhog! Here's to a great 4th year!